Moments spent with my dad days before he passed was full of emotion and deep meaning for all of us. He knew his time was near and that our moments were coming to an end. Such strong emotion engulfed us as we held my dads hand to express our love to him and gratitude. I must admit, these last moments that my dad and I spent have changed me forever. I personally have not experienced these intense emotions ever before, not quite like this! Tears filled my dads eyes as we held hands with a gentle touch. We were able to express feelings like never before. The room that my dad stayed in was full of peace and tranquility. Hospice made sure we kept my dads last days very comfortable. It was absolutely heartbreaking to see such a wonderful man whom we love so much suffering in the worst way. It took all my energy to just hold back from crying. I wanted to shout out, this cant be happening, please God, save my dad from leaving us and somehow heal him!! At this point in his illness, his heart was weakened and the cancer took over his body and will to live. My dad knew without a doubt that soon he would be out of his failing body and into the most amazing perfect body in heaven. My dads faith sustained him through these last few weeks. Days before his passing, my dad mentioned to my mom that he heard beautiful music! There was no music being heard, only by my dad. He was hearing heavens beautiful music.... God was letting my dad listen to what heaven sounded like!! It was Gods way of preparing my dad for his wonderful journey into paradise. We told my dad his brothers and friends and family were waiting for his arrival. Two very close friends of my dad has passed within weeks and the other man passed away last year. We reassured my dad that he would be playing golf with Dan and Earl when he reunited with them in heaven. Just knowing he will have a perfect,healthy spirit body made us feel a little bit better. All of us will be free of pain and sickness once we leave our physical body. My dad had such inner peace and acceptance of his illness. What a courageous person my dad was and still is, in his new home in heaven. I am looking forward to meeting with him again once I leave here to go on to Gods home. But, in the meantime, we are missing my dad and longing for his spirit to be near. I pray that my dad is watching over us from heaven and he knows just how much we still love him with all our heart!!
written on - April 30, 2011
written on - April 30, 2011